Nightmares (not me)

Time really flies, at 1000km/hr. I'm in school now, last day before I go on leave. I don't know why when I say last day it feels like I am leaving forever =X

And my closest colleague have been on medical leave since yesterday... oh no. as much as I wished she is here, I would rather she rest and recuperate at home.

Somebody is more anxious than me. Hubby says he had 2 nightmares in a row. One was about HIM giving birth (he says because he doesn't have a vagina so the doctor wanted to cut open his... LOL, another one was about me going into labour............................ well that will happen eventually.

Baby, mummy can't wait to meet you... Promise to come on the 30th please?? I got a feeling his head is engaged already..

God has given me victory - 凯 the chinese character for victory, part of baby's name ❤

Mood swings kicking in

Very tired.

Washed quite a bit of baby's clothes yesterday. My colleague gave me her laundry detergent, super grateful for that. It smells really nice! We bought additional clothes drying rack exclusively for Zac's use because sure no space... How to when there are already 4 of us living in the house. I'm quite horrible. I realized I only bought 4 baby vests (they were paid by my father-in-law during our taiwan trip and it was just a random purchase), 7 pairs of mittens, 9 pair of booties, 4 swaddle blankets... oops

I have more to wash later.

If not for my church friend who gave a whole lot of clothes I think my baby got nothing to wear. Haha. Not sure why I just don't have the desire to go shopping for baby stuff. I am not a person who enjoys shopping anyway but I thought I would be different when it comes to baby.

Our designer friend came to paint the room and added nice cloud and balloon stickers on the walls. I told him I wanted something along the lines of 'Up'.

Need to fix the stroller and wait for cot to arrive.

Today is my second last day at work. My colleague is on medical leave, will be taking over her class. Kind of looking forward to it. Going back to my mum's place for dinner later. Can't wait to knock off. I reached school just on time, had my breakfast, check my email, read articles and just took a nap. Yes that was how tired I was. All the commotion last night, many times I wished my house really belong just to me and hubby alone.

Don't get me wrong, my FIL and BIL are ok people. But when people with different living habits and expectations come together, friction is inevitable. Getting used to your spouse is already a huge challenge, and yet I need to get use to 2 others. I just feel it is so unfair for me. I finally understand why couples are encouraged to stay apart from parents. They need to set up their own family rules and structure but I feel even that is taken away from me. If I demand them to do things a certain way, that would be uncomfortable for them as well right?

I'm not even someone who is particular about household stuffs, I never had to lift a finger to do housework when I was single and now I am doing housework my whole pregnancy. The house would be less messy and dirty if it was just the 2 of us. I wished people would try to help. I wonder if I had problems with housework would anybody even take the initiative to clean the house for me?

Enough ranting, we will work this out together.

Pre-mummy jitters

Sleepless nights, thinking about the impending birth. Worried about the pain (how can a baby go through down there??), worried about having to go through a c-sect if failure to progress. How bad would the pain be, will it warrant an epidural? Should I? Worried about not being able to breastfeed/low supply. Hubby admitted he is also 'scared'.

Reading about birth experiences doesn't help either, I'm curious la. Can't help looking. Also been reading lots of different stories mummies everywhere been through, trying to conceive, stillbirths, ectopic pregnancy, miscarriage. Every woman who becomes a mother (or has the desire to be one) seems to share an unspoken bond.

I was just telling hubby its now 一天过一天. I'm at 37 weeks, day 3 - 19 more days. My appointment with the midwife this Friday again, and I wonder if I can make it to the next appointment?

There were some points during the pregnancy I asked "What did I get myself into??" Am I ready?? But other times we talk about when we are going to have a second one... haha

I guess we can never be ready.

I don't really like the month of March, I don't find any dates that look nice. But I thought my original EDD 30th March looks nice. That would be 40 Weeks + 1 Day. I told baby, can come out on that day?? :D

2 more working days excluding today. I will have 2 weeks of rest/preparation. Just waiting for time to pass and preparing to hand over.

Yesterday I took over the class for my colleague. Those adorable kids. Gonna miss them. When I'm back from long leave they would soon be in Primary 5, how fast kids grow up! One of the triplet asked me, "Why is your nose so red?" I replied, red and big right?? Then I told her that there are many changes when a woman is pregnant. she later add on, "how come your tummy become bigger but not your other parts?"

I felt better after that haha.

My maternity photos are ready! Gonna collect them this Friday too. I planned quite a number of things for this Friday. Planning to do my hair, go for my appointment, collect the photos, will be having dinner with the bridesmaid team.

I'm actually craving for apple strudel now... Can I fly to Australia for one? I missed the one my cousin brought back, had it during CNY! yummy.

I shall end off with a picture of my bump at exactly 37 weeks!

See you soon my cutie pie...